Why did I stop my old blog and start a new one? Let me tell you why.

I did what you are apparently not supposed to do when you are a blogger. I stopped a successful blog to start a new one. Just when my old blog was closing in on a million unique views, I pulled the plug. Why? Because it had taken on a life of its own and it no longer felt like me. I took quite a few breaks to see if I could reconnect but it just seemed that the further I was away from it, the happier I was. But I didn't want to stop blogging. I missed the sharing, the fabulous ladies who read my old blog for all the right reasons and I missed documenting our life. It really just wasn't me anymore. I felt like I had to watch what I wrote, what topics I wrote about & a lot of the audience didn't seem to connect with me, they connected with the blog had to offer them. They were coming just for the sewing, recipes and what they could get for free. That was not the reason why I started blogging all those years ago. I wanted to just be me. And who is that I hear you say. Let me try and sum up who I am.

I am a tea loving, vodka drinking, tattooed woman who is a hippie at heart. I am a free spirit. I love adventure and I seek it. I have wanderlust flowing through my veins. I am a very creative person who loves to make. I find it almost impossible to sit still. I hate being told what to do, just ask my husband about that! I swear, a lot. I seriously have a sailors mouth. I love to be completely organised yet love spontinaity just as much. I feel connected to the ocean. I am at my happiest when I have my feet in the sand. I love the company of others but I prefer my own company best. I am extremely empathetic, almost to a fault, I always put myself in other peoples shoes, not literally because that is too funky for me! I do not like to be unkind & I will try to avoid saying something that hurts someone's feelings. Often I may seem like I am quiet but that is only because I am thinking a million thoughts in my head. When I do start talking, you can not shut me up.

And there is the other side of me. I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister & a friend. I may not always be the best at being all of those at once but I try my hardest. I am a damn good mother & it is the number one priority in my life. Nothing ever comes before my kids, just like most of the other mothers out there. Except my own mother. I have never discussed my mother publicly and it is a very emotional subject for me. Over the last few years I have become "Motherless by choice". Those who know my mother will totally understand my reasons why. Those who don't know my mother & the relationship she has with people, will never understand. It has changed me in a lot of ways to let go of my mother but it has been for the best for myself & the other relationships in my life. Sometimes it is better to let go than to hold on to a sinking ship. 

 But please do not try to put a label on me because I will rip it off quicker than you could imagine. I don't judge people & I would like not to be judged. Yes, I love to cook, craft and sew (hence the name of my old blog), but that is not what defines me. What defines me can not be put into one category. I blog because I love to blog and I am horrible at project life. This is my version of project life. A place for me to document what is going on in my life, my head and my world. I take photos on my phone for this blog because taking staged photos with my DSLR then uploading them, editing them & watermarking just takes up more time than I would like. I am sharing photos that are done in a second and are real life. If something is too hard, I just won't do it. I blog from my phone or iPad because if I had to wait for the computer to load up, I would be sidetracked and never end up blogging anything. This is all part of the person who can't sit still. If that means that my posts are not polished, are written straight from the moment & straight from the heart, then I guess that is who I really am. 

So if you want to stick around, who knows what you will be reading here next. Because who knows what life will throw at me. I feel like I am always evolving. I am not the same person today as I was yesterday.

Just remember, don't ever do anything that doesn't make your heart happy. Always be yourself. Unless you can be a unicorn. Then always be a unicorn. 

From Jos with love. xx